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do you believe in ghosts? hauntings? i believe a memory can be haunting.

approximately 6 years ago i met dan while working at a music store. he was rude, crass, dark, tormented, and unbelievably attractive to me. he was not my type. he was a rocker, with a piercing in his throat. i was a pretty innocent girl still back then. i'd never experienced attraction like that. but he was a bad boy, and my good girl instincts told me not to go there. even if i'd wanted to, i was too embarassed to ever make a move with someone i worked with.

for months i "secretly" crushed on him. he knew. i know he did. he flirted with me, and teased me, and pushed my limits all the time. i remember one night he asked me if i liked his new cologne, then leaned in really close so i was almost kissing his neck to smell it. π - Givenchy. I'll never forget that scent. It was intoxicating.

anyhow, dan took his life about three years later. it broke my heart when i found out. like maybe i hadn't done enough to show him he was loved. i miss him. i'm still angry at him for leaving with no explanation at all.

today i was at a cash register paying for my items when i caught a familiar scent. i looked down and there in the basket in front of me were samples of π - Givenchy. needless to say, i'm feeling a little haunted today.

R.I.P. Dan Tudisco July 21 1978 - September 4 2003